Well, today has been a rather slow day. Last night I wasn't able to sleep too well, for some reason, so all day I've been tired. I still can't understand why I've been so tired lately; I shouldn't be.... Anyways, Aunt Bev and Uncle Danny are in the kitchen right now with Mom, discussing about what new paint should adorn the living room walls. Personally...I think it's fine. I remember when we first moved in, Mom thought the living room was one of the neatest features of this house...but now suddenly she's dissatisfied, and demands we change it. Argh! I'll never understand fashion.... >_<
There's been a lot on my mind lately. Sam wrote something in his journal not far back, saying something along the lines of that for the first time in his life, he had no obligations, and his life was his to do with as he pleased...but he wasn't quite sure what to do. A few days later it sunk in that I'm in that very exact same position. If I wanted to, I could sit here at my parents' house and do absolutely nothing. Forget about job, school, whatever--I could stay home if I wanted. Of course it wouldn't fly well with my parents, but still, I somehow do have that freedom. I've got my life to do with what I choose to...but somehow I have nothing.
For eighteen or so years, my life was devoted to school. When I got out of school, then my life was devoted to work. Now...I honestly don't have any direction. My life is probably going nowhere with Papa Murphy's. In a month or so at most, they'll be taking me aside likely for "the talk". I did just get a phone call today, though, from Pizza Hut about an old applicatoin I filled in, and they were wondering if I would be interested in that delivery job I had written about. That's...a possibility, but what about my life? Where should I go? What should I do? And why in the world don't I know?!
Anyways, I just thought to give a quick angsty report about my life, seeing now I'm determined to at least make some sort of attempt to keep this journal updated. I'm going to be heading over to Katie's pretty soon; she invited me over for a little bit, so I think it will be pretty nice to get to see her again. I think it's been over a year since I've actually physically seen her. Well, all, take care, okay? =)