But anyways, there've been things going on with me lately that have been bugging me. Nothing much has changed in my life, it's just that a couple things have been more apparent. The first one is the fact my life is still in a rut, and likely going nowhere any time soon. My mom has been getting on me lately about going to college and doing something with my life, but she doesn't understand this already is on the forefront of my mind. I'd honestly like to do something...but I'm still in the dark as to what in the world I'm supposed to do. :\
Work has not been the best lately either. I've been trying hard and doing my best over there, but it still seems like nothing beneficial occurs over there. Main manager Liz almost seems incapable of talking to me without telling me of something I'm doing wrong or what I should be doing instead. What gets me is that I see her talking to everybody else, especially when outside smoking a cigarette, joking and laughing and carrying on friendly conversation. But she isn't the only one around work--most people there don't bear interest in me. ...except a couple folks, one of whom is--
George is somebody over there who's gone out of his way to try and be friends with me. I honestly was pretty surprised when he started talking to me, trying to find out things that we share in common and be friendly and such. But about a week ago he brought up something that others have in the past as well, and that was, "...so you've never had a girlfriend? Dude, I'm so going to try and help you!!" It was him and manager Brent I closed with, and their view with the fairer sex made me decide I wanted none of their "help". -_- Their stereotypical hedonistic view of girls, girlfriends, and sex turned me off, being they believed "whoever gets laid the most before they die, wins!!!1"
While the issue of having a girlfriend is something I don't actively pursue, nor do I consider it a major issue in my life, it brings up something else: people judging my life. I've gotten so many comments from people about how my life is wrong and I'm doing everything wrong and I should correct it. But in the end, the one who does anything with my life is me. People telling me that everything in my life isn't the way it's supposed to be, and I should be doing something else, blah, blah, bugs me to no end. Who are they to be deciding what's wrong and right with my life?! I know that I want to be doing something with my life, but being told I should be in college right now, being told I should go into a certain career field, or be criticized about the different kinds of friends I hang around...nobody should tell me about that.
Rrrh! But anyways...yup. And that's the stuff that's been bugging me.